"Scream of silence"

Tears are silent,pain is silent,anger is loud.and life what's life??? some say it's silent some say it's loud.but u know some times in a silent atmosphere when your tears get frozen and no one give a fuck on your miserable life you can here the  "Scream of silence". It can hold you from your neck and throw you in the pit of sorrow.Slap you so hard that even a blind can count a fingerprints on your face.Yes yes...this all can become a reality when you stop your action or anger when it was needed the most.
Well what have I did??? It's a meaning less question now as after a broken marriage.
This all stuff suck my blood every single day. I don't wanna discuss my failure with any one. I wanna shout , slap my self for thousand times. I know this is not me who fight till the last round. Have to get up but from where ??? have to take a new start but how ??? Criticize someone's married life was not at all my cup of tea or giving someone a advice on a relationship topic where i had many broken once..( 90% them was one sided) .It's the high time and have nothing in my hand but that's the place where we all have started when we all came in this world, "Empty Hands"..........  
I am doing nothing at the moment and this is pushing me downwards.


Ideals are always peaceful but reality is violent and cruel.