Emotions do have versions.

Hey there ..I am Back after a long long time...

Do you remember when was the last time you laugh out laud from your heart ?

When was the last time you cry from the bottom of your heart ?

Remember ????

Few of you do remember but one thing is common that they  all do the things which I elaborate below in front of some one ...Some one whom they trust , love , respect...But you know what, things change drastically as we think they will not but they do. And at the moment the real face of few people came in front of us the all feelings and emotional level in our heart and mind change it's gears or here better to use the word version.

Why your feelings change ?? Few people does not deserve to ask such questions as the change came after
there actions. A true feeling can heal many scars and wounds from your heart and mind. Such Relationship never ever require any name . The thing is true feelings. If you have true feelings then the flow of emotions will remain constant respecting to the same person but the feelings or the statements came with the mix blend then the version will change. You left some one with the heavy heart and wet eyes and wish that the same person will help you in future, yes he or she will help if your feelings are genuine. After a several incidents a person's mind & heart work together in such case. So keep faith in your mind and heart.If you feel the change in the attitude then just change the version of the emotion and move on.

"Scream of silence"

Tears are silent,pain is silent,anger is loud.and life what's life??? some say it's silent some say it's loud.but u know some times in a silent atmosphere when your tears get frozen and no one give a fuck on your miserable life you can here the  "Scream of silence". It can hold you from your neck and throw you in the pit of sorrow.Slap you so hard that even a blind can count a fingerprints on your face.Yes yes...this all can become a reality when you stop your action or anger when it was needed the most.
Well what have I did??? It's a meaning less question now as after a broken marriage.
This all stuff suck my blood every single day. I don't wanna discuss my failure with any one. I wanna shout , slap my self for thousand times. I know this is not me who fight till the last round. Have to get up but from where ??? have to take a new start but how ??? Criticize someone's married life was not at all my cup of tea or giving someone a advice on a relationship topic where i had many broken once..( 90% them was one sided) .It's the high time and have nothing in my hand but that's the place where we all have started when we all came in this world, "Empty Hands"..........  
I am doing nothing at the moment and this is pushing me downwards.


Ideals are always peaceful but reality is violent and cruel. 

Good Bye Master Blaster..A true player of gentleman's game..

 I used to address him "pendulkar" in my childhood..Used the same bat named "Power"..put his and Kapli Dev's pic. on my cupboard.Pray in front of  his pic. before playing cricket in my Society. Yes folks I am Talking about non other than Sachin Ramesh Tendulkar.. He will be no more on cricket field..He called it a day..Date : 16.11.2013.....

What can I say about him , there are many many talks are going on about his career , retirement , post retirement plans.etc etc...but let me tell u the incidence of yesterday..when he was batting in his last test match against west indies.. I was at my office and checking score at regular intervals...when my colleague told me that hey you haven't check the score,,Sachin is out (74 Runs) !!!! Our Heart stops for a moment..Yes he was back in the dressing room...Sad na!!!!  I clapped for him when he plays his magical storks..or bowel 6 different balls in one over..Feel sad when he return to dressing room with out troubling the scorer...threw some slang words to the umpire also if he gave him a wrong decision... but what makes him such special that his arch rivals were also praised his career ?I saw his batting videos...keeping cool like Ice. I know..I am a sentimental fool in the case of cricket...cried for 2 days when India Lost the match in 1996 world cup...feel sad when we lost in 2003 world cup..eyes were wet again in  2011..but this time it was for a happy moment. MSD lift the world cup...got the No. 1 ranking..fail in Aus, ; England...etc....He was a cricketer with a clean image.A true player of a gentleman's game..

Trying what's makes him so special...and ..and still he was down to earth in his final official speech..consider all his important people in the speech..(till now my eyes are wet ...not due to the over time of company but heard his speech up till now 10 times and counting...)

Remembering the sandstorm innings in sharjah..Batting with pain against Pakistan..etc ..etc..etc...

I know every Indian or a true sports person will admire him at a different time of his career...

You were my childhood hero and you will remain the same...

Good Bye Sachin...

**you can laugh if you find any funny thing in it..but I write this blog to give a guidance to my feeling towards him which was not possible for me to share with any one.

It was burning in past but not now....

ya...Heart was in fire for few months  back but not now..doing what i like the most...still some disturbance but i am sure it will not last longer now..do what u want to ..it will not make any change in me...sorry but now i want to full fill my ultimate goal...before 7 years I came to Ahmadabad with a vision and i think it's the only time to work on it...trying to shift my mind from all social work i did... no more advises...no more thoughts...no more statements...I had it all.....now will do what i want to.....

Kabhi main na chaahoon koi kushi Na main chaahon yeh zindagee

Kabhi main na chaahoon koi kushi

Na main chaahon yeh zindagee

mere dil mein teri kami

Har sanam, har pal hai koi kadam

Har dil ki chaahat magan

Daar daar ke guzre janam


Jungloon aur samandaroon mein sami

Hai raahatoon joh mile na kabhi, yeah yeah


Is haseen samay ki yeh raaht

Samhaj me aane lagi

Ban jaayegi yeh kushi

Mil jaayegi yeh kushi

kitne samay guzar gaye

bichad gaye samay

ban jaayegi yeh zameen ee ee ee ee,ee ee ee


Kabhi mein chaahon sab ke liye

Khul jaayeen dil mein chupee

chotee chotee gham ke giley, aye aye aye yeeh


Oh ! kabhi main chaahon tere liye

Main chaahon mere liye

Joh gaaon sab ke liye ee aye ee yeh aye aye


Jungloon aur samandaroon mein sami

Hai raahatoon joh mile na kabhi, yeah yeah



Is haseen samay ki yeh raaht

Samhaj me aane lagi

Ban jaayegi yeh kushi

Mil jaayegi yeh kushi


Kitne samay guzar gaye

Bichad gaye samay

Ban jaayegi yeh zameen ee ee ee ee, ee ee ee


Is zameen ki alishaan,............

Gaaon main abhi, yeah eh yeah, eh yeah eh yeah


Oh mhujko mere khuda, hamesha oh sada

Gaaon zara hi, yeah eh yeah eh, yeah eh yeah

Hoon deewana main tera, deewana tu mera

Khamooshi hai ah haa …..


Is haseen samay ki yeh raaht

Samhaj me aane lagi ah haan haan

Ban jaayegi yeh kushi

Mil jaayegi yeh kushi

Kitne samay guzar gaye

Bichad gaye samay

Dil jo bhi kahega maanenge

Dil jo bhi kahega maanenge
Duniya me hamaara dil hi to hai
Har haal me jisane saath diya
Vo ek bichaara dil hii to hai

Koi saathi na koi sahaaraa
Koi manzil na koi kinaaraa
Ruk gaye jis jagah dil ne rokaa
Chal diye jis taraf dil pukaaraa
Ham pyaar ke pyaase logon ki
Ham pyaar ke pyaase logon ki
Manzil ka ishaaraa dil hi to hai

Duniya men hamaara dil hi to hai
Dil jo bhi kahega maanenge
Duniya me hamaara dil hi to hai

Haar maani nahin zindagi se
Hans ke milate rahe har kisi se
Kyun na is dil pe qurbaan jaayen
Sah liye jis ne gham bhi khushi se
Sukh me jo na khele ham hi to hain
Sukh me jo na khele ham hi to hain
Dukh se jo na haara dil hi to hai

Duniya men hamaara dil hi to hai

Apani zindaadili ke sahaare
Hamane din zindagi ke guzaare
Varana is bemuravvat jahaan men
Aur kabze men kya hai hamaare
Har cheez hai daulat waalon ki
Har cheez hai daulat waalon ki
Mufalis ka sahaara dil hi to hai

Duniya men hamaara dil hi to hai.

Don't know why I am singing this song....

Evening morning I remember you
My heart feels very nostalgic
O darling! I swear my love for you

Separation after meeting is a custom now a days
I am helpless because of you thoughts
O darling! I swear my feelings for you

World thinks that heart is a toy
I have come to know that what it is to put be obsessed by heart
Please don’t see me as a lower
Even if I die now, then don’t forget me

I can see your face in my eyes,
But you are very far away
You are close to my heart
That’s the certainty
Oh darling! I swear by your love for me.